Hi, my name is, oh who cares, I just love JESUS!

The other day while lazily browsing the internet, I happened to randomly pen down this little thought,

“I’m not asking to be your journey, I’m just asking to be taken along the path you walk. I don’t want to be ur burden, I want to be ur light.”

People immediately assumed I was talking about relationships with the opposite sex, and while that is fine, people are allowed their own interpretations, I was not talking about such. I was thinking about how so many people I’ve come across since graduating from high school in 2007, have refused to allow me into their lives in a personal manner. 90% of these people being Christians, or as they call themselves, “followers of Christ”. Now this isn’t a blog putting down anybody or saying someone inparticular hurt me or wha wha wha blah blah blah… no, this is a blog about how we’ve hurt Jesus Christ. How we’ve let Him down, both those who have blocked me out of their lives, and myself.

I’m not going to go into a big story about myself, I’m going to go into a big story about Jesus. Because I want to talk about Him and how that little quote above reflects what He is whispering to us daily. I penned those words to reflect how I feel about friendships, and people I’ve tried getting closer with in the past 1-2 years. Well I suddenly realized how God is saying it to us. He’s not asking to be your journey, He’s asking to be taken along, everywhere you go, in everything you do, everything you say! He just wants to hold your hand along the path, and even occasionally carry you when you get too tired to go another step. Jesus isn’t and should not be our burden! HE IS NOT A BURDEN! He is a LIGHT! We see Him as this HUGE burden, ruining our lives! I know, I know, “Jesus makes me blue”, it’s the truth in some sense, but that’s when we are only thinking of our little meager selves! Jesus doesn’t make me bbblluuueee!! He makes me UBER freakin excited! He makes me want to jump and scream and laugh and smile to no end!!!! No no no no no! Jesus does not make me blue! My selfishness makes me blue! My self-centered attitude makes me blue! Jesus makes me shine! Shine with joy and happiness! Why are we as Christians running around saying things such as “Jesus ruined my life”!!!! I know, in some ways, when we are thinking about ourselves, this is true! Super true! But nooooo! Think about Jesssuussss! He doesn’t make you blue! Not at all! He’s beautiful and lovely and good and I, oh man, I don’t know what else! Everything good and right and true! He is NOT a burden unless we make Him one. He is a freakin bright and shining light! A piercing light when there is nothing but sadness and darkness and heavy hearts. He is good. He is good. He is good!

I’ve been ignoring God. I haven’t been reading my bible much. My prayers have been so scarce, it’s a wonder He still knows my name, my heart, my everything. I’ve been chasing around for people’s approval, instead of His already open accepting loving arms, ready for me to snuggle up in! I don’t know, I just woke up this morning, so in love with Him! So ready for everything He has! So in love, so so so in love! He’s my romance, He is my friend, He is my shoulder to cry on! No one else! Just Him!!!!

“Are you not from everlasting, O Lord my God, my Holy One? We shall not die.” -Habakkuk 1:12

“17 Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor the fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, 18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord. I will take joy in the God on my salvation. 19 God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deers, he makes me tread on my high places.” -Habakkuk 3:17-19

“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.” -Philippians 4:4

“O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirst for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory. Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you. So I will bless you as long as I live; in you name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food, and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips, when I remember you upon my bed, and meditate on you in the watches of the night; for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.” – Psalm 63:1-8